Cinnamon in Peace
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Owner buckeyefarm
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Cinnamon´s mom here

2 months ago
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I will try to get through this, but the tears are already coming. If you kept up with Cinnamon´s progress, you know I feared taking him back to the hospital. When he started vomiting, I panicked because my hubby isn´t a great nurse, although he tries his best, and I can´t walk or even move around much in my wheelchair without help. Cinnamon wiggled so much, it was hard for me to hold onto him.

Well, we had accepted two cats that day. They were in carriers on top of Cinnamon´s cage. They may have stressed him out, or maybe the meds got licked and made him vomit. Both things were my fault. It was my decision to send him to the ER too. This was Saturday. The vet said except for his "dead" spot of skin, he was looking good, and didn´t seem to have anymore problem other than needing the tail removed and the hip fixed. They put him on an IV to keep fluids up.

Sunday, I called the clinic, and the tech said he was doing good and was so sweet. She just loved him. I was relieved.

Monday, I called the hospital twice, after 4pm, but got no answer, nor did the tech call me back. The clinic is open until 11. I called the front desk and said I hadn´t been called back, and needed to know what was happening with Cinnamon. They connected me with the tech, a male, who didn´t know Cinnamon, so went looking. This was 9pm. He came back to the phone and said the vet was going to do the surgery the next day, or Wednesday. I had a bad feeling talking with this tech...you know....that in the gut bad feeling. Supposedly, he took Cinnamon out for meds, and he was dead 10 minutes later.

Tuesday morning the vet called to tell me he was shocked, and didn´t know what happened. You know where my mind went. Walter picked Cinnamon up. It was like a crime of passion when the killer combs his lovers hair and fixes her clothes and cleans the blood off. Cinnamon was in a black plastic bag, looking very peaceful, curled like a sleeping cat, with this red tag attached.

I love you Cinnamon!
Mom
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Owner furrypaws
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Oh wow. That is horrid, no wonder you are having such a hard time. First don´t blame yourself, Cinnamon was very ill, and you´ll never know if perhaps he had an underlying internal injury that had finally given out on him.

Thank You for telling us what happened, I for one appreciate it and understand how hard it is for you to tell us.

You are a wonderful woman Eva, and you do wonderful things for unloved animals.
All our love and purrs.
-- Daff and The Furry Crew

Inappropriate 29.June 2008 02:39

Owner buckeyefarm
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I´m trying. This is so hard, I´m still crying, but I´m glad I finally did get it posted. Hopefully, it will help, now that it´s done.
Eva

Inappropriate2008-06-29 02:47:30

Owner teri13
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Yes, you are wonderful and help so many animals. It was in no way your fault. Please dotn beat yourself up over this. thanks for sharing your story.
Teri

Inappropriate 29.June 2008 02:44

Owner buckeyefarm
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I know it´s not really my fault, but it´s so hard not knowing for sure "why". If the vet hadn´t been shocked, too, maybe it would be easier to accept.
Thanks for caring,
Eva

Inappropriate2008-06-29 02:51:48

Owner LiandOllie
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It wasn´t your fault, and Cinnamon knows that, too. He couldn´t have had a better, more loving mummy to look after him before he went, and he will be with you always, as your little angel, watching over all your kitties, too.

Inappropriate 29.June 2008 02:51

Owner buckeyefarm
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Thank you for caring.
Eva

Inappropriate2008-06-29 02:52:43

Owner darcyd
 4

OMG, Eva, how horrible! I thought Cinnamon had just had a relapse and either died or you had finally had to let him be put down but it sounds like he was neglected or murdered from this. Oh no. Not at the vet´s where he should have been safe. This is terrible. No wonder you were devastated.

Inappropriate 29.June 2008 03:14

Owner buckeyefarm
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I am still upset by it all. Not knowing what happened makes it hard.
Eva

Inappropriate2008-06-29 03:54:39

Owner Tegan
 2

I hope you find peace in your heart Eva I truly do. You have to search for the strength inside yourself...it isn´t easy...I wish you and your family well.

Love Ruth-Anne and Tegan xx

Inappropriate 29.June 2008 07:09

Owner drbom
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that must have been a terrible experience for you. we are sorry you had to go through that. not knowing what really happened complicates the grieving process.

keep strong eva, you have all the other little darlings who are still relying on you.

drbom and miming

Inappropriate 29.June 2008 09:14

Owner defiantsky
 3

Oh,it really is very painful to relate the story again. Dont be too sad. Cinnamon knows you´ve tried your best. Do take care.
*M&M*

Inappropriate 29.June 2008 11:37

Owner kiwi1
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Eva first let me thank u for sharing this with us, I know for sure a lot of us needed to hear it from u.
Pls. do not blame ur self, its what was meant to be, u have tried ur best for him in every way with such persistence we all admired u for, we r all just humans.... I am sorry it went like that, especially at the vets clinic!! but that proves u have nothing to be guilty about.

You r always in our prayers, god bless u.

Kiwi

Inappropriate 29.June 2008 15:50

Owner buckeyefarm
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Thank you for the kind words. It is getting easier but the questions will remain. Makes me rethink what I will do in the future. This really is the first event at the clinic I´ve used for 30 years. Hopefully it was something in Cinnamon´s injuries, and not the techs fault. I´ll never know for sure I guess.
Eva

Inappropriate2008-06-29 16:51:46

Owner kevscats
 7

Oh Eva, we are so pleased you were able to see through the tears to tell us what happened. From reading it, the whole thing doesn´t really make sense with everyone saying Cinnamon was doing so well then the worst happened. I am wondering if the whole truth has been told but perhaps we will never know and sometimes this is worse. Please don´t blame yourself - we put our trust in Vets being professionals and you have dealt with them for a long time so assumed he was in good hands. What you write at the end seems to indicate that you feel you haven´t been told everything and that type of situation is more worrying.
All our thoughts are with you at this time. For sure Cinnamon is running free and doing harp practice with Treat but it cannot make up for the loss this side of the Rainbow Bridge so we are all here for you.
Kevin & Honey, Vodka, Smudge & Tabby. xxx

Inappropriate 30.June 2008 15:45

Owner buckeyefarm
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Thanks for the support. I asked the office manager for Cinnamon´s medical records for that day. If I learn anything, I will post it in his diary.
Eva

Inappropriate2008-07-02 17:19:54

Owner marketa
 5

Thank you for telling us. Eva, why don´t you talk to your vet- you have known them for a long time, so surely you can talk to them. It is always difficult not knowing what happend. All the best from all of us. Marketa, Vitia and Vali

Inappropriate 30.June 2008 17:42

Owner buckeyefarm
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I asked that they send his records, so hopefully I will get some answers.
Eva

Inappropriate2008-07-02 17:16:24

Owner Lisagate
 4

Eva, you did the best you could, and please never blame yourself for taking the decision to eventually bring Cinnamon to the vet´s. He had to go sooner or later for his surgery. You had rescued Cinnamon in a miserable state, put all your energy on his recovery and it was a daily fight, full of hope, wishes and prayers. As Cinnamon seemed to get better and stronger each day, we all expected a happy ending. The mystery on what happened does not make it any easier for you to get over all this. But may you find the answers to your questions. All of us and, most of all, Cinnamon himself, are grateful for your dedication and convinced you just did the best you could and more than any of us could have done in the same situation.
You are a wonderful woman, Eva.
We keep sending you our friendliest thoughts.
Lisa (for Tùm Lum, Tà La, Mambo and Java)

Inappropriate 1.July 2008 00:21

Owner buckeyefarm
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Thank you so much for everything.
Eva

Inappropriate2008-07-02 17:15:17

Owner alicekenney
 2

I am so sorry about Cinnamon - but you made sure that the end of Cinnamon´s day had love and care an were not spent abandoned and alone. I am hope you are ok. Bless you.

Inappropriate 5.July 2008 00:46

Owner buckeyefarm
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Thank you for your kind words
Eva (Cinnamon´s mom)

Inappropriate2008-07-05 03:31:53

Owner lotje776
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Hi Eva, Thank you for telling this. It is horrible what happened, you did a wonderful thing for Cinnamon, we know
Also for all the other cats and dogs, You are a wonderwoman. Take care of yourselve. Simone (lotje776) and Lotje, Chica and Tinkerbell.

Inappropriate 8.July 2008 18:04

Owner lnailufar
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i really said to hear this news. my tears cant stopped. i imagine my princess, Papola D Haibu when she died. Cant talk anything, i just can cry. I can feel how ur feeling bout Cinnamon. I really sure, she is beloved cat, a princess too.
Hopefully, god keep Cinnamon in his hug and give she a more love. Send my pray to Cinnamon dear.

Inappropriate 9.July 2008 15:05

Owner buckeyefarm
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thank you for your kind thoughts
Eva

Inappropriate2008-07-10 04:00:08

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